4-18-10 subtle irritation of peaceful realms

4-18-10 Thoughts on the subtle irritation of the peaceful deities... as in bardo of death ...as suggested by chogrum trungpa... like heaven is often referred to as a boring place..."rather be in hell with all your friends"... so too...trungpa suggested as you move through the death bardo.. you will come into the presence of the peaceful deities which if the unenlightened bardo mind does not recognize will propel the mind into the wrathful deity realsm... I believe if I remember right.. chogyum trungpa suggested that the unrealized mind responds with a type of irritation to the peacefulness... it is just too peaceful... this comes up in grosser forms in ordinary meditation practice.. being bored with the practice...getting irritated with the non-activity of it...i am reminded of being a little kid in church and feeling really restless... a feeling so obviously shared by many of the italians I went to easter mass with... not sure what the motivation was to be there for them...but there was that undercurrent of contained restlessness and then there was ab almost a bounce from the crowd, when it was time to leave... the subtle all pervasive suffering that exists at all times even when we are not feeling bad.. that restlessness.... I think church is a great place to learn to sit with this subtle peaceful aspect of enlightened energy... outstay the irritation just a little just.. like on the cushion...